I thought I was tough when I was young, I didn’t cry during sad scenes in movies.

Now that I am 20 years old, I cry even at badly executed sad scenes, I cry even if the movie’s genre is not drama.

I rewatched the sad movies I watched as a child, and now I bawl my eyes out.

Have I grown too soft? Have I become too emotional? or perhaps I was just too good at suppressing my emotions…

Maybe I should write what I’ve learned everyday?????and what i did?? A simple recall of the day I’ve had and what i wish to accomplish next???

Also maybe some simple prayers and thanksgiving??? Maybe I should start today?

I reflect and think back of the times I could have been kinder to my mother.

When she lost her father, I wish I understood back then how important that was. At the same time, my father got into an accident, I wish I told her not to worry too much because I’ll take care of my papa. But what I did was relied too much on her not realizing she was at one of the lowest points of her life.

I wish I never lashed out at her when I was angry

If I could take back hurtful words I said to her, I would, even if it costs me my life.

I wish I just stayed silent when I was angry

Words don’t really mean much to you but it could mean so much to the person you said it to

I wish I did all the heavy chores

I’ll do my best to help in the house

I wish I wasn’t like this

mind is cloudy
I couldn’t function

Saw a shooting star 😍 🌠

Slchld- I find peace in the rain playing in the bg

I didn’t know it was possible for me to hate someone so much. I hate you with a burning passion.

At first, I was indifferent towards you but as time progressed, with you in OUR house, my indifference grew to hatred.

How could a girl as petite as you be so annoying?

Many times you stole my place then act so dumb about it.

You make mistakes in OUR house then blame it on me. You’ve got some nerve.

You EAT A LOT and DEMAND A LOT from my brother, aren’t you ashamed? You’ve got no money nor work whatsoever.

You’re a liar too.

And such a drama queen. You let tears flow in order to manipulate my brother.

Mother despises you. I used to tell her not to judge you quickly… It turns out mother knows best.

And father… he usually likes people but you still manage to make him hate you.

I will never acknowledge you as part of the family. I don’t know what my brother sees in you.

You can fool him but you’ll never fool us with your facade.

Go home greedy manipulative lying strumpet.

Probably shouldn’t get involved with you

I know a lot of people are willing to listen. I just find it difficult to open up. It’s easier to act fine. I want to maintain being the “sunshine of the group”. I hide pain well. I’m a VERY good liar. I’ll be fine.

All this loneliness would pass, the mind’s just being a little too playful this time.